And knowing you cracking jokes at sad moments, you will be saying "Aiyo, what miss miss? later die we will meet again one lah!" :)
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I always wondered as I passed houses filled with sorrow as they mourn of the deaths of their loved one. I also too have lost my family loved ones. It is sad. And as yesterday I picked up the phone, I was all calm. This scenario has happened before. I went into the training room filled with business associates, talked calmly till the training ended.
I picked up my car keys and started my car. And as I drove, I wonder.. why did Ian leave us? Why did he never say goodbye? It was last Saturday I met him. We always made fun of Ian. We will tell him his bad choices in girlfriends, and I remember saying, his shirt looked like a McD staff that particular day. My friend on the other hand was laughing and lecturing to the fact he couldnt pour the tea right and accidentally pored it on the table which dripped on Jeremy's pants.And we were discussing that we all should be playing Laser Tag in Sunway and Ian say he still wanted to play despite the shining lights! He told us he wanted to celebrate his birthday and wanted all of us to come to his house for it. And Jeremy was at the background saying "BBQ BBQ". And as we wanted to leave it, Ian said "ok we all meet up for laser tag ok". And he said bye.
He always wanted us friends to meet up. He always made the initiative to ask us all to meet up. He always try to plan out activities. And like Jeremy always says "Ian was a good man".
The next I remember, I was crying at home infront of my laptop, listening to Jay Chou songs. He loved Jay Chou and he sang exactly just like the artist. So when I listen to it, it was like he was speaking to me. I remember his phone when you call it, it was Jay Chou saying "Hello Ta Chia Hou. Wo se Chiau Cheh Lun.. byebye wo the peng yeow yau chiek ni the tian huah liao". And well, I always thought it was Ian and Ian would time it just precisely when Jay Chou finish his sentence and he will go "Hello!" :).
I close and open my eyes and I am at Ian's house. I see his dad being strong and I now realized, Ian resembled a lot like his father. And his mom was not taking it too well. As I see her break down, my lips curve a little and my eyes started to tear up. I cried again and my other two friends, Jill and Ash cried together.And I saw Ian's body laying lifelessly, I knew, our Ian was gone. My heart was pulled as Ian's dad told us "Ian always spoke about Jacyln, Ashley and Jill - he said this are his closest friends". And as I stared down his graduation picture, his dad said "He is so proud of this paper" and I saw, he kept the graduation bear I custom made for him with a Mc D hat. I continued crying, he is really gone.
Jeremy said he was wearing his favourite shoes. And Ashley wondered if he was wearing our watch which he hinted us for his birthday. And we reminisce about the good and silly times we had. From the day we became friends, the day we celebrate dhis first and second and third birthday. And after all the crying, we managed to smile. I think people might think we are crazy - crying and laughing.
Lee Chong Ian, We all love you as a friend and brother. It is the hardest fact to accept that you are gone, but I know the memories of you will live in our hearts.
And you have certainly won my heart as my best friend in the world.
Love,
Jacyln Ong
