A Long Dramatic Story

My life has been awesome this year as it taught me many things in life.

One thing I will never learn though was that I shall never help those who did not appreciate me.

But one day, someone asked me for help.

This wasn’t just any ordinary someone.

Every time I hear of him, it makes me happy.

Every time I get a message, it makes me smile.

But do not get me wrong, he is NOT the “one” for me.

He’s of course someone I use to really love but then we separate our own ways.

Nonetheless, seeing the person you love as a friend and seeing him happy makes me happy.

Sadly, not everyone thinks this way.

My friend still thinks I like him.

His girl thinks I like him.

But I don’t.

I do love him but sadly, I just don’t want him back.

No one understands and its time to explain it all. I do love him and heck, I love everyone around me. But then I’m more grown up and I see no future relationship with this friend of mine. I don’t see myself holding his hand or telling him I love him anymore. Why should I ever bother getting him back then?

But of course I still love him but nothing more as a friend. I want to see the person I used to love to hold the person’s hand he loves and his smile and her smile would make me smile seeing that the person I love has found the person that he loves.

My friends find it hard to understand but after a few hurdles in their very own relationship, they talk to me about their problems and finally they told me.. they finally understand what I said.

I was used out of this friendship I offered him, every single time, but I made it as though it was just something I was willing to help. Moreover, it was never wrong to offer a hand of help if you could.

People find it stupid and at times, I feel stupid too.

So that day when he felt his life was crumbling, I left this friendship.

But after a day, I felt the guilt eating up in me. I left a friend when he needed someone to talk to the most.

Reluctantly, I typed a sms to relieve me out of the guilt to check on him.

Sadly, his girl replied and scolded me. Stating words so mean and I laughed at such drama. She told me to stopped messaging and such..

And I was surprised seeing that I have never tried to contact this friend of mine while he on the other hand did. I tried explaining everything that this friend of mine is totally lost in love with her and not me.. but then she wouldn’t listen. She was in her own self-destructive drama.

She deleted my message which was concerns from a friend to a friend and continued saying words of mean.

But she couldn’t be blamed much because I see she’s in love with the guy too or perhaps……………….. then again, its their story and my observation is only for myself.

So now I am waiting for this friend of mine to contact me because I know he will tell me all the words I will expect to hear.

He will say that he didn’t need help, even though he asked me first.

He will say he love his gf and that we were over.

And he would ask me to leave him alone.

And if everyone would be confused why he would say such a thing, its because he was unappreciative of those around him. He was selfish then. He was selfish now.

I’ve been dragged into their drama long enough and my reply this time would be firm and serious and I will tell him..

I knew we were over or why did I bother be friends?

When a friend asks for help, is it wrong to just leave them to die?

And I will tell him that I came back to help him when no one did.

Will he give up a friend who loves you for just him?

I will wish them all the luck and when the next time they fight again,

My friend would be all alone.

And if he was the unluckiest of unluckiest guy around.. their relationship would be over.

His whole life will then crumble.

Not only because he lost the person he loved.

But because he’s lose one true friend to cry on by his side.