Dedicated to those heart-broken people (winks at that special person)

For those newly single-tons, read this for some support. It’s from my experience. A girl who feel deeply in love with a guy, who did not appreciate her and finally went their own separate ways.
This is my recovery to being single and living it.

Month #1
I would prefer to have a boyfriend.
My single friends would say ‘eh.. Syok what single.. No need to remember anniversary, or birthday shit”
But then I’ve gotten too much into relationships to be out of relationships.
I miss holding someone’s hand. I miss telling someone how much I love him. I miss giving them miss calls in the morning and tell them ‘wake up hunny bunny!’
I miss him a lot. I dial his number and chatted with him.
Every word he spoke made me smile.
I love him.

Month #2
We fought as friends.
He did not understand me. We stopped talking to each other.
I tried to move on by dating other guys.
But they were too boring. Nothing was better than my boyfriend.
I miss him.
I love him.

Month #3
Friends ask me to move on.
He is a jerk and asshole.
Friends see him dating with Malay girl.
My heart got broken, cannot sleep a lot of days.
Friends very sad for me and try to fill my time.
Friends intro me friends who intro me friends.
I have good times with friends.
Dating still not good coz all the guys want is fun.
I miss him.
I love him.

Month #4
Opening and replacing my relationship (singular) with friendships (plural) has changed my life.
Very happy till.. he sms me.
Very sad cause he was thinking of me.
And I actually forgot to think of him..
I miss him again.

Month #5
I stopped dating.
Give up.
Every guy ask, I say ‘No’.
Very evil and hao lian.. I know..
But then now I think I’ve been into too many relationships and I’m tired of it.

Month #6
I sat down and thought what guy I really want in my life..
Open up to dating if that guy meets my specific qualifications (J~)
Being happy doing things that I did not know my bf has restricted me too (like eating babi.. hahaha)
Life more hyper with new found friends
In other words, contented.. until
I and my ex bf met again.
His gaze was special.
It made me miss him more.
Ex- bf sms me to try to patch friendship up.
I wonder if I should reply.
Cause I still miss him.
But now, this time..
I don’t love him anymore.


That is how I became single. Hated it at first but as time moved on, my feelings for him fades. Thought I could not move on but I forced myself too.

Now, I love it, I indulge it and finally I’m loving it.